Today is the second day of my 2-week vacation from work.
I'm really going to focus on keeping track of my food intake and taking advantage of my free time to go for walks and go to my weight training classes. My record keeping for the past 8 months has been completely derailed, and I know that it's pretty much the root cause of my 13-lb weight gain since January.
I need to stop making excuses.
Yes, it's a real pain in the butt to have my notebook at work where I write down everything that goes into my mouth. It wasn't such an issue when I worked only the night shift, but I'm finding a huge shift in the workplace attitudes and culture during my day shifts now. My co-workers observe me and I feel very self-conscious about it. I hate feeling self-conscious and conspicuous. I don't understand why I feel this way, exactly - I really thought that I'd dealt with the part of my psyche that cared too much about what other people think - obviously there's still work to be done. I feel kind of embarrassed to have my snacks at work too, because it isn't part of the culture / work ethic at my job. I wonder how other people cope with having to have all meals and snacks at work, over a 12-hour shift.
There have been times where I've felt so awkward about having my snacks (after getting looks from colleagues that plainly read You're eating AGAIN?) that I have taken to sneaking a piece of cheese or a protein bar into my pocket and hiding in the washroom to eat my between-meal snack. How is that acceptable? How does that help to de-stigmatize obesity and support those of us who are trying to adopt strategies that actually work for us in our struggle to lose weight?
I'd love to hear how other people cope with this issue.